Anticipating the End: An Introspective on My MBA

Wow.  The last actual class of my MBA program is in two weeks.  Graduation is another two weeks after that.

What a ride.  To be sure, it’s a ride that I’m ready to get off of, now.  But it has been a very valuable and enriching experience.  Enriching, yes, but also exhausting.

In some ways it’s a surprise to be here.  I don’t fit the typical model of an MBA student.  I’m a creative.  I’m a writer.  I’m a fantasy and speculative fiction writer.  I’ve done no formal polling, but I imagine you can count on one hand the number of successful fantasy and speculative fiction writers with MBAs.  You could probably have lost a few of your fingers in some horrible accident and still have enough to count the number of successful fantasy and speculative fiction writers with an MBA from one of the top business schools in the country. 

Which is to say, the business field is not one that typically draws people like me who have such a creative bent and focus that creative energy on the production of fantasy fiction.  Let’s face it, there are certain stereotypes we’re dealing with here: MBAs are understood to be cold, calculating, detached, and overly concerned about money and the bottom-line; they have little or no compassion, don’t interact well with other people, and any factory floor worker could do their job as good or better than they without a fancy degree.  They probably afflicted with some sociopathic tendencies.  Creatives, meanwhile, are flaky, flighty and undisciplined; they lack the mechanisms to comprehend the importance of financial matters, are unable to deal with numbers larger than roughly around 20, and are prone to erratic and sometimes self-destructive behavior.  They are probably afflicted with bipolar disorder, OCD, or are addicted to mind-altering drugs.  It goes without saying that both of these stereotypes are excessively and bizarrely unrealistic portrayals of either group.  And that as perhaps an amusing study in contrasts I am a member of both groups.

Even rejecting these two extremes, I still have some trouble, sometimes, reconciling the duality of my nature, with regard to being a writer in pursuit of an MBA and a business career while simultaneously in pursuit of a successful writing career.  Because, though the difference between the two worlds is not so extreme as the sad stereotypes might suggest, the two worlds are different.

When I started my collegiate education more than a decade ago now, I chose to get my bachelor’s in business for a simple reason.  It was because I wanted to be a writer.

That doesn’t sound like it makes a lot of sense now, does it?  The story goes back to my middle school years, when I was reading books by Piers Anthony.   In those days he included “Author’s Notes” in the backs of his books, which consisted largely of him answering questions and fanmail and otherwise interacting with his readers.  In some ways, Anthony was ahead of his time – his Author’s Notes were like a prototype for how many authors use their blogs today.  Like many authors, Anthony was often asked questions from fans who were also aspiring writers: people like me.  And he would answer with advice for these aspiring writers.

The one piece of advice of his that has most strongly influenced the course of my life amounted to this: Don’t quit your day job.  I don’t remember his precise words, but I came away with the indelible impression that succeeding in a career in writing was hard. And not hard as in it required work and dedication.  Hard as in work and dedication were insufficient to guarantee success, and that success was insufficient to guarantee enough income to support a family.  Rather: have a back-up plan, because you’ll need one.  And what better back-up plan than the pursuit of business skills?  Businesses would always have a need of people possessed of business skills, would they not?  Such a person would always be employable, or so went my reasoning.

It never really occurred to me to pursue other potentially employable interests and skills: not my interest in art, not my facility with math or science.  I had always done well in all these classes.  I brushed with computer science (earning a minor CS in undergrad), but did not shift my course.  My focus was on becoming a writer, and to become a writer, I needed a job that would pay well while leaving me time to write.  It’s that latter part, perhaps, that has been debatable in the aftermath, but nonetheless my course was set.

And so, here I am, having spent nearly three years engaged in the pursuit of a higher education, and greater career success.  I haven’t lost sight of the dream.  I still yearn one day to be a full-time writer.  But my dream has been tempered by a decade of life and reality since I started down this particular road.

I know that the vagaries of the writing industry leave much to be desired for one hoping to support a family.  The chances of success are slim – whatever path you set for yourself as a writer – even as the industry changes under our feet.  Writing is important to me – it will always be important to me – but my family comes first.  And I can’t rely on the fickle fortunes of a writer’s life alone to support them.  And so, I’ve dedicated myself to a more conventional career – I am a fantasist, perhaps, but I’m also a practical man – while relegating my pursuit of a writing career to something just a little bigger than a  hobby. 

Along the way, I’ve discovered that I’m gifted with a number of very valuable talents.  My earlier-mentioned facility with numbers and science has given me just the right mind-set to do great quality analysis of a kind that businesses often need.  My stint with computer science and my continued fascination with computers has helped me to hone a capability with spreadsheets that is almost unmatched – I can do things with Excel you people wouldn’t believe.  I have a sound mind for statistics.  These qualities, it turns out, do indeed make me highly employable.  And my abilities as a writer are of no small use as well.

And the door swings both ways, as it turns out.  With each step through my MBA, I’ve internalized the lessons and realized how much what I’ve learned applies to a career as a writer.  A professional writer, after all, is nothing if not a small business owner.  He or she creates a product, sells licenses, must do a great deal of marketing, and keep track of business income and taxes.  When the day comes that I do start making money from writing-related activities, I won’t be caught off-guard by what to do.  I’m already fairly well up-to-speed on that side of things, and the specifics of the writing industry I learn more about every day.

In the meantime, the challenge has been to find a way to use my business skills in a way that is both financially rewarding and creatively satisfying.  That’s a big part of why I decided to pursue an MBA rather than spend the last three years honing my writing craft.  I realized back when I started undergrad that, ultimately, writing was a craft.  It was something you could learn just by doing it.  You didn’t need teachers telling you how to do it – maybe they could help but they weren’t strictly necessary.  Publishers and readers won’t check your MFA credentials before publishing or reading your book.  But in the business world, an MBA comes in terribly handy for proving yourself ready for the next step in your career.

I didn’t know when I was going to be ready for the next step in my writing career.  I still don’t, though I know I’m progressing.  But I was more than ready to take the next step in my business career.   At some point – it could be this year or next or ten years down the road – I’m going to start making money from my writing.  I know this because I believe I’m a good writer and getting better.  But even then, it won’t be enough to support my family.  At best, it will be a nice supplemental income stream.  Happily, as long as I can put in a little time each day after graduating – perhaps after little B.T. goes to bed each night – I’ll be able to write.  And happily, during the work-day, I’ll be able to take those skills I’ve acquired and apply them in a business setting to earn enough for bread to feed my family.  I’m optimistic that I can do both, and do both well.

I won’t set a writing schedule for myself immediately.  I want to give myself room to breathe after graduating.  I may take a “break” of a week or two.  But very soon, I will plunge in.  I will be writing regularly.  I don’t know if it will be every day, three days a week, or precisely how often, but it will be regular.  I’ll be starting first with a short story – a future submission to a certain contest – and I’ll begin serious development on a new novel.

I can’t wait to be writing again!

10 thoughts on “Anticipating the End: An Introspective on My MBA

  1. Enjoy the breather when you’re done! You deserve the rest and relaxation. It’s all good fuel for starting with the writing again. 🙂 Looking forward to seeing how things turn out. Remember this post and look back at it a few years from now!

    • Thanks! I intend to enjoy it, though I don’t intend it to last long. I’m eager to start writing again, soon! And I won’t be abandoning the blog during that time, either – or at least I don’t intend to. I’m hoping more regular blog updates will resume shortly thereafter, though we’ll have to see how things go. I’d love to get back to a daily post schedule or something a little more regular. I update usually two or three times a week, but right now precisely when I update is so erratic.

  2. It’s interesting you bring up creativity and business. A lot of the people in my graduating class started off as business majors then later decided to try interior design because they thought it was “more creative.” I think they are richer for it, as I have pretty much next to no business experience (besides working for the same one for almost five years, heh).

    To be fair, though, I think all career venues require some degree of creativity. There was an article I read in which the author, if memory serves, mentioned how creativity was just the ability to solve problems in a novel or interesting way (or something like that; I’m paraphrasing here). I, for one, would have no idea how to solve most problems that come with running a business. It’s something I’ll probably have to pick up along the way and take some more classes on, I suppose.

    Though, I get what people mean when they say that things such as writing and interior design (and by that people actually mean “decorating”) being more “creative.” There’s less imposed structure involved; like you said, you don’t really have to go through school or a certification program to learn to write fiction, and the same is true for decorating. (Design? Not so much; but my major is probably one of the more misunderstood ones out there, so I digress.)

    • You’re right – essentially creativity is the ability to put ideas and thoughts together in novel ways, often as a means to solve problems but not always for that purpose. And yes, most jobs may require some degree, more or less, of creativity. In fact, it can turn out to be a very valuable ability in the right context in a business environment. (Although, we who are just a little creative or more always joke in B-school how the one field where creativity is not allowed is Accounting. “If you get creative in Accounting,” we always say, “You end up in jail.” Ba-dum-CHA!) Interior Design, now… doesn’t that involve a certain amount of architectural awareness? It’s not just decorating a space, but designing it for an intended use or purpose? The way I understand it, Interior Designers work with architects or whoever to help build out things like offices and executive suites and such and such. Is that close?

      • “‘If you get creative in Accounting,’ we always say, ‘You end up in jail.’ Ba-dum-CHA!”

        Lol, I like that. But that’s still sad…(and yet I’m laughing, haha).

        And about interior designers…YES! Gosh, why can’t people be more like you, Stephen? lol Every time I tell people my major (and my civil engineering friend gets a kick out of this) they’re like, “Oh, how fun! I’ve always wanted to be a decorator! Do you watch channels like HGTV and stuff?”

        -__- (Of course, I do, but that’s besides the point!)

        The major thing, though, is that most states in the USA actually require would-be designers (like me) to sit for an exam in order earn certification and the title “interior designer.” Not only are you required to book a certain amount of time in the field (2-4 years, depending on how much schooling you’ve had), but you have to prove you are knowledgeable about material specification, codes, lighting, contracts, drafting and space planning, among other things.

        /shameless rant. 😛

      • Sad, maybe, yes. But so true. Just ask Enron 😉 Re: Interior Designers, I only know what I know (a) because I had a friend was such a major in college (though I never asked her what it entailed) and (b) because in my capacity in business I’ve become at least tangentially aware of the various kinds of contracts and needs for building out a new office. I assume designers perform a similar or related function in the home-market (ostensibly, I would think, for large wealthy homes/estates, but I don’t know for sure). But decorating, I figure, I can do that: a painting I like here, a potted plant there, maybe a couch and an end table, more or less. (Okay, a full-on decorating gig, maybe not so much; I am a dude, after all, and my Dear Wife might not like it if I took charge in decorating… 😉 She’ll ask my opinion, of course, and make sure what she picks meets to my liking, too, but I am not the primary decorator…) Designing out an office space? That takes a lot of skills I know I don’t currently possess. i.e. It takes more than just an eye for the artistic.

      • Hey, I wonder how often organizations like the CIA (or even our national governments) employ those “creative accountant” types? Haha.

      • Not to get too political… but “creative accounting”, I think, is pretty much de rigeur on Capitol Hill. That’s how some congress-critter or other can release a federal budget plan that cuts taxes by the same amount as it cuts spending and claim that it magically will lower the deficit.

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